November 22, 2013

PCOS to Pregnancy: Hiding my "pregnancy" belly

Ugh. I spent a little over a week injecting medications into my stomach. By the time it was all said and done, I looked 5 months pregnant. If I was pregnant, oh what a blessing! I would love my bulging belly and wear adorable maternity shirts. Instead, I'm fighting against my body and my wardrobe trying to hide it!

I wish I could just stay home in my yoga pants and my husband's old t-shirts, but unfortunately, I have to go out into the world. My toddler has preschool. We need groceries. Church on Sunday. The list goes on and on. I try to remember to suck in gut as much as possible, but it only helps so much!

I'm terrified someone is going to ask me if I'm pregnant. I look like it, that's for sure! If it was a stranger, I could play it off with a lie..."Oh yes, we're due next summer!" But, people at church, my son's preschool teachers...I can't really lie to them. I don't think people really want to have the awkward conversation of why I look like this..."No, I'm not pregnant. I just pumped a ton of medication in my body in an attempt to get pregnant. It may or may not work. So thanks for noticing."

I'm sure some of you are wondering why I care or if it even matters. Nothing is worse than being asked if you're pregnant when you're not. This has happened to me a couple of times in my adult life. Your stomach is no longer flat one day and you have a little pudge. Bam! People feel the need to comment. It helps that I'm not alone. I know this happens to countless women on a regular basis. If only people could mind their business.

I have no idea how long this bloated look will stay with me. I drinking as much water as I can to flush my system out. Of course, I truly believe it's worth it. In the mean time, I'll just keep wearing my ratty old baggy sweatshirt in an attempt to hide my body. Body image issues are the worst!

I'll be taking next week off for Thanksgiving! I'm sure you will all be too busy to read with family time and Black Friday sales. When I come back, I hope to have good news to share! Two week wait is here!

I'm Jenny, the mama behind the blog Cloth Diaper Revival.   I'm a stay at home mom to Noah and a wife to Chas, the cloth diapering dad.  I used to be a 3rd grade teacher until I was blessed with the birth of my first child, Noah. I'm currently trying to conceive my second child while struggling with infertility due to PCOS. This series covers my journey and my experiences along the way.

3 comments:

Hopefully some baby dust is coming your way!

Drink a bunch of Gatorade. I'm not kidding, you'll have to pee like a racehorse, but it'll help flush out all the bloat. I did injectables back in April and I know how awful they are. The worst was the migraines for me. Hopefully it works for you, it never did for me, but now we're trying a more natural approach.

sending baby thoughts your way!!!!