August 2, 2013

PCOS to Pregnancy: Living in the real world

I had an epiphany yesterday. If I could just shut out the whole entire world around me, I could be content. I wouldn't be jealous of every pregnancy announcement and every new birth. I would stop comparing my life to others and actually enjoy the one I have.

Don't get me wrong. I love my life. My desire to have another child is real and isn't going to go away even if the only two people I encountered in life were my husband and my son. That being said, I do think it would be easier to deal with. Every time I open my Facebook newsfeed I'm bombarded with pregnancy announcements or new birth statuses. Instagram and Twitter included. I can't escape it. I actually took a break from Facebook at one point and vowed not to look at my newsfeed. It helped, but I'd never be able to escape it completely.

My job is in social media. I get paid to be on Facebook. So there's no escaping that. When you work in the cloth diaper industry, there's also no escaping the tons and tons of pregnancy announcements and new baby posts. But even if I were to quit my job and throw my laptop away, I couldn't escape it. You can't avoid family and friends. You can't avoid other moms at the park or the expecting mom in the grocery store line. That's not real life. It's something I have to deal with.

I'm trying to learn to stop comparing my life to others. We are all handed different lots in life. I love my life and I know that I have a good one. It is incredible and I'm so thankful for the blessings I have. If I could just stop wanting what other people have. If I could just stop wondering why getting pregnant for others doesn't involve time, money, or stress.

You could really apply this post to just about any life situation. The single girl wonders why she isn't married and is invited to yet another wedding. The couple struggling financially wonders why they just can't catch a break. The parents of sick children wonder why their baby can't be healthy. It goes on and on. It's real life and it's something everyone has to do deal with.

I'm Jenny, the mama behind the blog Cloth Diaper Revival.   I'm a stay at home mom to Noah and a wife to Chas, the cloth diapering dad.  I used to be a 3rd grade teacher until I was blessed with the birth of my first child, Noah. I'm currently trying to conceive my second child while struggling with infertility due to PCOS. This series covers my journey and my experiences along the way.

2 comments:

I appreciate you being so candid with us, your readers. I have never gone through your particular situation, but I have gone through plenty of those "why me" situations, where there's not really anything anybody can say to make you feel better. Just know that you have lots of friends out there that are rooting for you! And you are in my prayers, mama :)

It does take time and stress for many people, even if it doesn't seem like it. Money, not always. But the other 2, very very often.