July 5, 2013

PCOS to Pregnancy: Moving forward to the unknown

I failed. I failed my last round of Clomid. We have an appointment early next week with a reproductive endocrinologist. I have very mixed emotions about this. My new doctor is one of the best. Just reading his biography and all his credentials really puts me at ease. Money and time does not put me at ease.

We have done our research on what our insurance will cover. They cover practically nothing when it comes to the big stuff in infertility. My husband is adamant that we can't go into debt over this and we don't have thousands of dollars lying around for infertility treatments.

Our plan at this point is to get a plan! We're going to our first appointment ready to hear what the doctor has to say, to see what course of action he recommends. I'm hoping that I have an option or two still available to me that will be covered by insurance before we have to move towards the big stuff. If not, we'll be taking a break and saving our pennies. My husband has done the math and says we won't have to wait longer than a year, but even a day seems like an eternity to me at this point. We're already a year into trying to conceive our second child and I'm tried and weary.

I burst out into tears at really awkward places. The line at Starbucks or the middle of painting a background for our church's VBS just aren't places people expect some woman to start sobbing. I'm ready for the good news of a pregnancy to bring me back to my happy place. Of course, this may not be the plan for me. I know that a pregnancy would only be a temporary happiness, not a life long one. It's just hard. Once you start yearning for a baby, a pregnancy can't happen soon enough.

So I could use your (virtual) hugs and prayers this week!

I'm Jenny, the mama behind the blog Cloth Diaper Revival.   I'm a stay at home mom to Noah and a wife to Chas, the cloth diapering dad.  I used to be a 3rd grade teacher until I was blessed with the birth of my first child, Noah. I'm currently trying to conceive my second child while struggling with infertility due to PCOS. This series covers my journey and my experiences along the way.

12 comments:

Hugs and prayers to you.

I'm at the same place you are at. I have PCOS and three rounds of Clomid/2 IUIs later, we're taking a break from the Clomid. I'm focusing on my diet to see if I can regulate my hormones more naturally. If not, we'll try another round of Clomid in 3 months. I understand the financial and time constraints well!

God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of POWER and STRENGTH! (2 Tim 1:7) Trust HIM who keeps us in His perfect peace.

It's hard. It took us over a year with both of our littles, and that was with Clomid, Metformin, charting and temping, and the whole nine yards. Had we not gotten pregnant our last round of Clomid, we were going to start investigating other options. I totally feel you on this. *hugs* Hopefully the RE can help you out and it won't necessarily be a clinical conception.

I have an autoimmune disease called "Hashimotos" that affects my thyroid, I was diagnosed with it after my first child was born. When it came to conceiving my second, it wasn't happening. I tracked my cycle, took ovulation tests, looked into Clomid, the works, but luckily I discovered something in the process: I was having early symptoms of PCOS. Not surprising, since my other disease is also autoimmune- They go together! I am a nurse and healthy eating advocate and I knew what I had to do. I needed to stop the inflammation in my body and heal it. So I choose to eat an antiinflammatory diet (gluten free, lots of raw fruits/vegetables). IT WORKED! On my next cycle my symptoms decreased, my cycle was normal and I conceived! As a nurse that works closely with holistic pediatricians and midwives, I see it happening more and more- GF diets with high intake of raw foods helps the PCOS (just like many autoimmune diseases!) and allows your body to heal & even carry a baby. GL! I hope you look into this and I hope you can avoid all of the expensive treatments & waiting time!

As someone who waited 5 years and endured 6 miscarriages, I'm sorry you are going through this. It is shocking how little insurance covers of infertility treatments, and it just deepens the sorrow when you want nothing more than a(nother) child.

I hope you are able to figure out a good plan for you and your hubby going forward.

(HUGS) I've been there so to speak. It took us two+ years for our first. I agree with the diet, which is what helped us conceive DD3. Hope you can figure out a good plan of attack and you can get that precious baby.

I am there too. Trying for number 2 and telling myself that my beautiful daughter will be enough if we can't do it again.....XOXO HUGS!!

We called Clomid the "devil drug" because it made me GRUMPY. We were all relieved when I stopped taking it. We did 3 rounds. It didn't work for us, either. We ended up getting pregnant naturally and found out the day before our first RE appointment.

I know your pain. We did 3 rounds of clomid along with IUI to conceive. Clomid didn't help me at all to produce extra eggs. We finally made the decision to go ahead with IVF and we succeeded after 1st attempt. Unfortunately that wasn't the only hurdle we had to overcome. Cervical cancer followed by 2 cone biopsies left me with no cervix so we had to hunt out a dr and fly to Chicago to perform an abdominal surgery (abdominal cerclage) when I was 11 weeks pregnant so my baby boy can make it. He was born at 37 weeks on 11/11/11

"Lord, I pray for a miracle for this mama and that you grant them their desire for a second child. You are mightier than any illness or treatment. I ask that you bless them with this since it IS your will that we multiply! In Jesus' name I pray. Amen." On a side note, I have a pituitary tumor (had?) and the doctors were telling me that without treatment there is practically no chance for me to conceive. Was against treatment because it's hormonal and that's what I believe messed me up in the first place (the pill). Also had a bunch of other complications that medically guaranteed any child conceived would be killed by my hostile body. God is really alpowerful. I'm a month away from giving birth to a baby boy and so far haven't had any complications whatsoever! He is more powerful than ANY illness and I will keep praying that He blesses you with another baby!

Hi, I'm Chantal and I suffer from PCOS as well. I live in Canada, and here I used a drug called letrozole, it was used off label. I found when I used clomind my body did not respond but it did for letrozole. I am currently 14 weeks pregnant. If you have any questions let me know .

I was diagnosed with PCOS in 2007 and it took us 15 months to conceive DD, who is almost 5 yrs old now! I tried Clomid, Femara, Metformin, IUI, etc and was about to start a round of injectibles when I found out I was pregnant. We are now expecting baby #2 after only 4 months of TTC unmedicated and I owe it all to Maca. If you've never heard of Maca, I urge you to read about it. It is derived from a root vegetable found in Peru and all Peruvian women eat it throughout their childbearing years. I took 2000mg/day of the NOW Foods brand and had amazing results. I had a normal cycle for once! I had a strong ovulation with ovulation pains! And the best part, I found out I was pregnant within six weeks of starting it. I am not the only one, two friends of mine were also pregnant within six weeks of starting the Maca supplements.
I also highly recommend getting on progesterone supplements as soon as you find out you are pregnant. Us PCOSers usually suffer from low progesterone which can lead to early miscarriage. I took progesterone with both of my successful pregnancies (I had one miscarriage before my diagnosis) and I owe it to progesterone supplements.
I wish you the best and tons of baby dust!!

I'm sorry the clomid didnt' work this round. Take heart, maybe the doctor will have good news. And even if not, maybe you'll get lucky while you're saving your pennies. If not, then you'll have the pennies, anyway.

If anyone gives you a dirty look for crying, tell them why. Sometimes, a little education provides a whole lot more for both of you than you feeling bad about expressing natural feelings would.