February 22, 2013

PCOS to Pregnancy: Round Two

I've heard this theory that once you have one pregnancy, your body starts to figure things out and your cycles can be regular. Getting pregnant the second time around is supposedly "easy" (so they say). I even had this happen to a friend. She conceived her first child with the help of Clomid and the second was an unplanned surprise. Lucky girl. I was hopeful this would be the case for me.

My goal was to start "trying" to get pregnant again around my son's first birthday. When I night weaned him at 7 months, I was surprised with a menstrual cycle a few weeks later. This left me hopeful that I would become "regular" on my own. Unfortunately, that period seemed to be a fluke. I fully weaned my son at 11 months old. I had hoped that by fully weaning him my menstrual cycle would return, be regular, and we could conceive on our own. Again, a few weeks after weaning, I was surprised with a period. Hooray, right? Turns out it was more of a tease.

Where we are now
Here I am, 7 months after weaning and no period. I had hoped to be pregnant by now. I saw my OBGYN at the beginning of the year for a annual physical and we discussed our plan. She wants me to try Metformin for 3 months in hopes that it will bring a regular cycle. I'm 7 weeks in on this plan and nothing. I didn't really think it would work. I had been on Metformin for a year and half before trying the Clomid last time without success.

I have been an emotional wreck lately. Pregnancy announcements seem to come daily on Facebook and Twitter. I struggle with the emotional battle of having my feelings hurt every time someone announces they are pregnant. Why not me? These feelings were really bad when I was trying to conceive last time and I had hoped to avoid them this time. It doesn't appear that is going to work.

I called my Dr. last week and asked her to induce a period with Provera. My thought was that an induced period would help me deal with some of the emotions I was feeling. Within 24 hours of taking the Provera I felt better, like my normal, happy self. I'm beginning to think that (thanks to the PCOS) my hormone levels are way off and I am running low on hormones. Provera can be used as a hormone replacement therapy and it seemed to solve my emotional issues (at least for now).

I'm still on the Provera. It's a 10 day treatment. Hopefully, this will be followed by a period. I've begun charting. My plan is to look for ovulation on my charts and hopefully conceive without the Clomid. I say hopefully, but I'm more of a pessimist when it comes to this. I've pretty much resolved that it probably won't happen and I'll be calling my Dr. for a Clomid soon. She wanted me to try the Metformin for 3 months. If it doesn't work, she said we'd move on to Clomid. So April 1 is my deadline. If nothing happens (no regular periods, no baby) by then I'll start the Clomid.

I really enjoyed the comments and emails I received from the last post. So many of you seem to be struggling with the same issues. It's hard for me to keep these posts focused because I just want to share all of my thoughts at once! I promise to touch more on things like emotions, charting, medications used for TTC, and alternative routes. What are topics you'd like to see covered?

I'm Jenny, the mama behind the blog Cloth Diaper Revival.   I'm a stay at home mom to Noah and a wife to Chas, the cloth diapering dad.  I used to be a 3rd grade teacher until I was blessed with the birth of my first child, Noah. I'm currently trying to conceive my second child while struggling with infertility due to PCOS. This series covers my journey and my experiences along the way.

4 comments:

I feel your pain. I didn't read the first post yet but I too have struggled w/PCOS for about 9 years now & went through the ups & downs (mostly downs of TTC).

I don't have anything significate to say, but that I know what you're going through. I was able to get pregnant after giving up & deciding that in a year I would start the adoption process (this after 6.5 years of TTC w/Met, Clomid (x3), IUI (& Clomid x2) & 1 failed attempt w/IVF (overstim).

We would like a second, but have decided to let nature take its course & if it happens, it happens. Our little guy is almost 2 now & we're still nursing twice a day, so maybe once we're completely weaned something will happen.

I do wish you luck & if you ever need to talk let me know!

I really struggled with PCOS before my first was born-with the help of provera to regulate my cycles. We were supposed to start clomid in 2 weeks and I found out we were pregnant. But it took us 18 months to get there. After my son was born I didnt get a post partum cycle until he was 19 months old but after that they were more regular than they ever had been. I worked really hard with a nutritionist to find out what suppliments I needed though and I think that made all the difference! Marilyn Shannon is who I worked with because she is local to me but she has a great book about pregnancy/cycles/nutrition and PCOS I would really encourage you to check that out because it helped me immensly. Our second baby is due in April and quite the surprise.

Thank you for this post. I was diagnosed with PCOS in November after years of inconsistent cycles (I'd gone as long as 15 months with NO period). Every doctor told me I was young and that birth control pills would 'fix' me. Well, they didn't. I understand all too well the pain that comes with hearing everyone's pregnancy announcements. I'm sorry you're going through this, too. The hardest thing for me has been feeling so alone, like no one gets it. Although I have very supportive friends, family, and a fantastic husband who has supported everything I've been trying to do to change my body so we can have children, I still feel like there is no one out there who truly understands what it feels like to know that your body doesn't work the way it should and that having children is so difficult for some people. Stories like yours make me feel less alone. Thank you for sharing and best of luck! :)

Hi Jenny! I was directed your way by my "sister from another mister" or BFF. She knows my story and she is CD her LO and came across your blog and so here i am.

Just reading this one post, I cant express into words how much hope it gives me. I've been with my DH for 10 years, dated 7 married 3 come April 3rd. Even though I knew at a young age that I would have trouble conceiving, I didnt take it seriously b/c we were young and not ready for that, and now that we are, I feel like such a failure at being a wife. I've done everything the Drs have asked, changing food habits, taking meds, exercising more etc.. I keep asking myself "why cant I do what every woman was made to do?" I'm extremly happy for all my friends having little ones, I dont fault them for my issues but its this pain, not physical, or verbal, but mental and emotional pain that those who havent experienced this dont and cant understand. If one more person tell's me "give it time, you're young" or "everything happens for a reason" i'm going to snap. Sorry for rambling....Thank you for putting your emotions and feelings out into this vast viral universe and being a connecting point for those riding the same emotional waves. Praying for positives in your future!!